| In 8 hours Ill be packin up, movin out, and heading home for the summer.
Kinda happy Kinda sad.
This semester has been awesome and full of a lotta changes. Ups
and downs. But all experiences can be learned from, and all
memories will never be forgotten.
Ive grown close to and apart from so many people this semester its crazy.
I finally told my parents im a DPhiL and they were actually.. not mad
at all. Surprisingly enough...the only thing my mom was 'mad"
baout was the fact that I broke legacy and am not going to be a Delta
Zeta... but I told her they are known as the EZ DZs down here.
lol. But yeah.
SOOOOOooooOOO excited about the apartment next year, Wai-Han, Lydia. I am toooooo psyched!  Sgonna be ROCKIN.
Still need to find that summer job! Gotta call my cousin about that awesome boutique. ...
uhhhhyeah, im bout to pass out. so.. Gnite everyone, enjoy the summer, and stay outta trouble... hehe
*until next time*
The summer should bring interesting things as usual.
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| One final, one paper, one portfolio down and one final to go!
YESSSSSSS
| Your Irish Name Is... |
Nicola Hennessy |
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| | MANDIE |
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| M | is for | Marvelous | | A | is for | Altruistic | | N | is for | Naughty | | D | is for | Daring | | I | is for | Insane | | E | is for | Enchanting |
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| Just got in from a party. I may be a bit intoxicated right
now. But now I really realize how much I really dont like it. And
how much I really dont need it. I can't stand drunk people.
They stand in front of you. Act like such idiots. For once when I
really could give a shit about half the guys i could be hitting on out
there... I sit and listen and watch people pathetically throw
themselves and lines at eachother... and I listen to things they say,
their mannerisms, and it all just seems so... stupid. Why go and
throw yourself into something that isn't going to really mean
something, even be remotely special to you...As a matter of fact why
throw yourself into something that has no reception on the other end...
I've definitely learned this through a lotta mistakes I've made in the
past, especially last semester.
I realize people are so bogus sometimes. Honestly, I am just
gonna say it. I have felt like complete shit lately. Though
people are trying to tell me things to benefit me. Or they are
doing things that are just benefiting themselves. Either way it
makes me feel like TOTAL shit. When all you want to do is chill with
your friends, but they won't even have the consideration to return the
favor. or when you try your hardest, and its just not good enough
for anyone. Or when all you want to do is have your business be
YOUR BUSINESS. Something or someone has to step in and just crap
it up.
I know there's people out there that care about me. I realize
that maybe lately i haven't been the same as I have been all
semester. Maybe I realized that I needed some changes, and I
honestly thought that it was all for the better. Which wholly it
could be considered to be like that... but not if when you're trying to
better yourself there's people in the way shooting you down. I
realize that every path is going to have hardships along the way.. but
lately i feel ridiculous.
I start crying over stupid things like, feeling bad for not wanting to
drink. Feeling bad for skipping out on drinking to study.
But honestly, and truly, with all my heart I felt terrible. like
I was abandoning my best friends...
Just.... I dunno... I just feel like people have been really shitty to
me lately, and now when i'm in a sticky situation I cant even go and
talk to almost anyone anymore because they wont even understand
anymore. Things just changed so fast for me. Sometimes I
find myself sitting around and just not even knowing what to do, like
just trying to figure out what to do with myself. It's
ridiculous.
I hate being left out in the cold the most. That just hurts.
Hurts so much... you prolly dont even realize...
*until next time*
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